i'll get some breakfast and change the world!!

oky everyone, ia m trying to redifine my outlook on life! okay i am gonna do this people, i am gonna do it! i am!!! i am gonna fix my bitterness and asshole attitude and i am NOT goignto be so short iwht you all! i promise you, it is going to happen. but first i need a prom date lol, JUST KIDDING! hehe okay so yeah i am sitting here on my friday night, eating chips and salsa con queso. it is tasty. i just got back from the mall with katie and denise,it was alot of fun, we were in H&M for like 2 hours..we tried on everythign. i got a really cute new shirt and i like it, i was gonna get this purse that was all cute and vintage looking...but i didnt. I ALSO FOUND YELLOW TIGHTS!! my mom and i have been looking all over for yellow tights for hte show! i am so glad...goodbye barely yellow tights from the 70's! YES! so yeah it was nice, we had fun and smoothies. then on teh rid home, denise started crying cayse teh lion king song was on and katie and i were singing ( how could i resist NA SIGVENYA????!) it and she started srying because it was so beautiful. not us, the play. and which it was and i love denise so much for srying about it. it was wonderful. she also cried about the espresso beans we got becuase they tasted like dirt. and they did! and i am so glad that she laughed/cried about it. and still ate them. laughing. it was great. still no prom dress for katie. thats okay, i can feel it comming, she will find it...oh yes, she will. there is a secret going around that i dont know about, and it concerns me... hmmm i wish i knew what it was, BUT NO ONE WILL TELL ME!! but the WILL tell me that there is a secret..damn them! but yeah. i am tired of feeling like i am gaining weight. maybe i should stop eat crap. maybe. i want some peanut butter. i wonder what everyone is doing...ntg is playing now. i wish i was there, but i have no way to get there. thats no fun. i wonder what pat is doing. katie is taking shower. i am on the computer. my mom is watching her japanese soap opera. maybe i will take a bath and try to memorize the words to "every tear". ever tho i know them already...but my mind i being slow and not remembering-like. ellen is here. i should call and go out with them. i am too lazy. see i have no right to complain. damn the man! well yes, i can guarentee a change for hte better in my daily everything and i will talk to someone soon...i hope! hehe okay i lvoe you all!!love and change of heart...lauren bug/bear/ana(as in ban...)

Your wings are...

Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You arean angelic spirit who has fallen from grace forone reason or another - possibly, you made onetragic mistake that cost you everything. Ormaybe you were blamed for a crime you didn'tcommit. In any case, you are faithless andjoyless. You find no happiness, love, oracceptance in your love or in yourself. Mostdays are a burden and you wonder when thehurting will end. Sweet, beautiful andsorrowful, you paint a tragic and touchingpicture. You are the one that few understand.Those that do know you are likely to love youdeeply and wish that they could do something toease your pain. You are constantly living inmemories of better times and a better world.You are hard on yourself and self-critical orself-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despiteyour tainted nature, your soul isbreathtakingly beautiful.Image is a painting by Natalya Nesterova,source:ca80.lehman.cuny.edu/.../images/fallen_angel.jpg *~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~* brought to you by Quizillathis is the sadest thing ever. i was wishing for my longed for faerie wings...they use to be mine. those times are long gone.

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well here i am again. i am boring. i am goign ot a dance with pat. that will be fun. YAY! so yeah rehersal is going cool. lol like anyone who reads this isn't IN rehersal too! oh well. so eyah i made two pretty cool art pieces today. i think i am goaing to use both in my portfolio. i am having a tough time with this james thing. i feel so terrible. i think i feel worse now tha the has decided that he isnt gonna call me or anything. i dont know, it takes alot to do. this totally sucks. hehe i was jsut talking ot denise and she just said "bye bye babe" she has never called me that before. that is fun! hehe so yeah. i am talking to allan. i hardly get to talk to/see him anymore ever. we are both to busy. i still have his christmas present. thats SO excitng right?? yeah. so i guess i willgo, i have to go to rehersal. i will hopefully have something exciting to talk about later. actally that coudl be bad, i hope i dont! love and duck feetlauren

hey look at that, francis is on

well today was a good day. i went ot the mal early with my momma to get shoes for prom, adn they are really cute, btu i dont thinki am dance in th em...so i might have to return them. but i will wait and see if i can find a pair i can dance in. then we go tjewelry for it all and i am so super excited and cant wait...but i have no date. i was gonna ask jake, but it is opening night of his show. so that TOTALLY sucks. i am tryign to think of other suggestions, so if you have any, let me know. my mom said to take chris carabba. i laughed. my dad gave me a list of people i should ask. it goes: dominic, kenneth, and last but not least, mr. springbrun (how the hell do you spell his name?? i cant say it, let alone spell it!). thanks dad. so i have a miny list going, but i cant ask numero uno because he is already going with his girlfriend, second person is busy. so i have will and pat. i cant think of anyone else...who else do i know??? I DONT! well i really do, but who do i actually want to take?? goodness gee(i am trying to cut down on my swearing) this stinks. but whatever, it will turn out okay in the end. so i am not freaking out abut it. so yeah the play is comming up...oh eyah!! i want like the biggest audience EVER so everyone bring everyone we know!! even people be we dont know! hell, i dont care!tonight was the father daughter dinner dance, it was so much fun. i had this cute little 50's dress and my papa was a nerd. it was awesome. and i hae decied that i love laura dean's dad. i saw a picture of him in my dad's year book cause they went to the smae school and yeah then seeing him older, it was fun. so eyah anyway. i don't really feel like typing anymore. so yeah i wil do it saime time later.dandilions, sunshine and coffeelauren

its so sad that i took the quiz to see which dashboard song i am...it is sad, but the damn quiz got

You are The Places That You've Come To Fear TheMost:Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,and covered with a perfect shell,such a charming beautiful exterior.laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyesperfect posture but you're barely scraping byBut youre barely scraping byThis is one time, this is one timethat you can't fake it hard enough to pleaseeveryone or anyone at all.And the grave that you refuse to leavethe refuge that you've built to fleethe places you have come to fear the most.Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,and hidden in the public eye.Such a stellar monument to loneliness.Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyesand perfect makeup but you're barely scraping by.But youre barely scraping byThis is one time, this is one timeThat you can't fake it hard enough to pleaseEveryone or anyone at all, or anyone at allAnd the grave that you refuse to leaveThe refuge that you've built to fleeThe places you have come to fear the mostIs the place that you have come to fear the mostAnd you can't fake it hard enough to pleaseEveryone or anyone at all, or anyone at allAnd the grave that you refuse to leaveThe refuge that you've built to fleeThe places you have come to fear the mostIs the place that you have come to fear the mostIs the place that you have come to fear the mostWhat Dashboard Confessional song are you? brought to you by Quizilla

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Your Heart is Red What Color is Your Heart? brought to you by Quizilla

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